Addictions
Addictions, Clarity, Communication, Connection
COMMUNICATION
Sticking with the communication theme from Paul and Tracey I want to share something new that I’ve been working on. Some really big. I hope you’re as excited to hear about it as I am to share it. Are you ready? Okay here goes. ……………………………………………………………………………………………………….. That was it. Pretty cool right? Okay I’ll explain. I’m no longer opening my mouth just to make myself feel good. At least that’s what I’m working on. See I’m a codependent with bouts… Read More
AUNTIE VENOM
Who hates you? “Yikes”, you scream. “What a rude and weird question! Nobody hates me. I’m really, really lovable.” Okay. But chances are, if you’re a normal earthling, when you think about it for a moment or two someone will come to mind. Right about now you should be remembering old “what’s-his-name”, the creep who refused your perfect apology. Or you suddenly find yourself picturing Auntie Venom, the family member that doesn’t like anybody and has a special case of… Read More
Addictions, Hanging In There, Understanding
HAIR
I’ve got a curly head of hair and I don’t like it. As if that was bad enough it’s red too. Curly red hair. Yuck. As a kid I hated it. So much so that I started shaving it off when I was 10. If I hadn’t I would have stood out like a soar thumb. Didn’t want that. Not a that age. Hair be gone! Over the years my hair came and went. I tried growing it out. Straightening… Read More
HOW TO GET OVER YOUR SUGAR ADDICTION
Are you a lifelong sweet tooth (AKA sugar addict)? Can’t finish a meal without something sweet to top it off? Stomach has a “reserve tank” purely for sweets? Me too. I could be completely full after a meal yet have plenty of room for an 800 calorie dessert. My palate isn’t discriminating either, it loves real sugar and fake sugar, you name it, anything sweet will do. The gravity of my addiction came last year when I ordered my coffee at Dunkin… Read More
Addictions, Change, Goals, Health
DEVIL IN A WHITE DRESS
When one thinks of white powdery addictive substances the first thing that comes to mind is cocaine. And without question it fits the bill. But it is far from most lethal, highly addictive, widely ingested white, powdery substance around. That would be sugar. Yes, the number one devil in a white dress is that sweet tasting, seemingly banal though highly addictive sugar, and its relatives, fructose, corn syrup and the rest of the sweeteners we seemingly cannot live without. America’s… Read More
GETTING EVEN
“Getting even” is a phrase that can be read two ways with very different meanings. For example, consider a gangster or a bricklayer. Revenge for one, precision and balance for another When my feelings are hurt or I’m being insulted or verbally attacked I’m usually fairly passive. I tend to go a little tharn like the rabbits described in “Watership Down”. That almost paralytic place where I can’t really think or move. Only not so extreme. Tharn Light actually.… Read More
Acceptance, Addictions, Clarity, Living Fully, Pain
A MASK FOR EVERY OCCASION
Master manipulator at your service. Oh. You don’t need to be manipulated? Okay. How about a liar? I’m a real good liar. Don’t need one of those either? Hmm. I know. How about a victim? I can play that role with the best of them. Wow really? Not that either. I thought for sure you’d want a victim. What do you want? Excuse me? You want me to just be me? Yeah that might be a problem. Who am… Read More
Addictions, Change, Courage, Emotions, Freedom, Love
IT’S OK TO LET GO
Have you ever wanted to say goodbye to someone but couldn’t? Wanted to tell someone that the relationship between the two of you wasn’t quite what you wanted it to be? Have you ever wanted to end something but you were too afraid to do so? Afraid of how the other person would respond? Afraid of hurting someone? Afraid of the unknown? I fully realize that it’s impossible to put myself inside your head. Anyone’s head for that matter. But… Read More
HOW COULD HE?
My name is Paul and I’m an alcoholic. Those words were the key to a new freedom and a new happiness for me. I gratefully accepting the help I was given by other recovering drunks and took them at their word when they told me I could never drink like other people. The wagon was the only reliable option. You’re taught that right away. Old Timer: “Fact. The first drink gets you drunk.” Newcomer: “Uh, okay. Whaddaya mean?” Old Timer:… Read More