Author Archives: Guest Blogger
THE SELF INDUCED VICTIM
Recently I had a rough day. A day where I took everything personally. “Why is everyone out to get me?!” A day where I drowned in the pool of assumption for hours. “Help!” A day where temper tantrums were a plenty. “I never get my way!” Oh yeah. I also assigned magical qualities to someone. “He should know better!” Yep it was on of those days. A Zachary Special Victim Unit kind of day. That’s right everyone. I’ve got a… Read More
LIFE IS BUT A DREAM
After his upset loss in the ring, the boxer was asked by a reporter “what happened to your fight plan?”. He replied “ Everybody has a plan until they get hit.” When life hits me hard, sometimes I forget what I learned as a child. And when I’m out of sorts, if I take pause and meditate on each line of this song, it helps me back up. Row, row, row your boat, Gently down the stream. Merrily, merrily,… Read More
Addictions, Self-Worth, The Right Stuff
ALLOW
Allow; to let do or happen, to permit, to grant, to make provision for. The word allow historically had negative connotations attached to it for me. A rigidity would happen in my body and mind when I would think of or hear the word allow. Even today, it can conjure up images of patriarchal men oppressing women and children, of mothers controlling their children, of abusive husbands maintaining control over frightened wives. I don’t think that allow is always… Read More
KINDNESS FROM BEYOND
My dream woke me from a deep sleep and left me picturing his face as I tried to hang onto the details before they began to evaporate. The “face” belonged to Jeff, the guy who introduced me to my husband, the Godfather of our son and a dear friend who recently died. Jeff was also a talented, famous, successful yet down-to-earth musician, husband and father. He was, quite simply, a good man. One of those rare human beings who… Read More
FAITH vs. HOPE
Believe in a love that is being stored up for you like an inheritance, and have faith that in this love there is a strength and a blessing so large that you can travel as far as you wish without having to step outside it.” – ~Rainer Maria Rilke FAITH When you come to the edge of all the light you have known and are about to step out into the darkness, FAITH is knowing one of two things will… Read More
EATING OUT AND NOT PIGGING OUT
If one oversteps the bounds of moderation, the greatest pleasures cease to please. ~Epictetus When I was a kid in the late 70’s/early 80’s going out to eat was a treat. When your birthday came along you’d get excited because that was the one day of the year you got to go to your favorite restaurant. Fast forward to 2015 and we are a restaurant nation. Eating out is no longer a treat, it is habit. An unhealthy habit… Read More
INFRAGILIS ET TENERA
Infragilis et tenera, unbreakable yet tender. In Japan, a pottery tea cup that has been broken is often fixed with gold, thereby making the broken the most cherished and beautiful. A crack does not mean that the cup should be thrown away; a crack makes it stronger when filled with gold. Have you ever experienced a hairline fracture than ran the whole of your body that started to split, threatening to allow all your innards to spill out? What… Read More
Addictions, Mistakes, Moving Forward, Pain, Self-Worth
THE CAR WRECK
Recently I had the lovely pleasure of being in a car accident. Yes that was sarcasm. No it was not lovely. Happened on a Monday night on my way home from work. I hit the car in front of me. Thank goodness everyone involved was okay. Let me just tell you, I was a rattled frazzled mess. My body was shaking – My thoughts trying to comprehend what had just happened. After we exchanged info and he drove away I… Read More
MY ADDICTION, MY SALVATION
I cannot believe how much I hated it. I detested this thing that had subtly seized my mind from a very young age and was still today successfully robbing my joy, my choice, and most importantly for me, my freedom. It took me years to not just name this thing but admit to its presence as it would classify my brokenness. Admitting that I had a Food Addiction would mean that I was not that good girl I was… Read More
Change, Courage, Discovery, DREAMS, Family, Fear
GOOD ENOUGH FOR THE HOLIDAYS
As I looked around the neighborhood I was amazed at what I saw. House after house decorated with beautiful Christmas decor. Look at that house! Lights. Garland. Trimming. The works. It looked so good. So warm and inviting. So loving and kind. Then there was my house. The one with no Christmas décor; No nothing ~ just dark, cold, and lifeless. My house seemed to be the only house on the block with no holiday cheer. That’s how I remember… Read More